It's been 2 weeks or so since we have stopped nursing. I miss it, but he is actually sleeping through the night. When he does wake up, he just crawls into bed with us, so I am finally getting more sleep. I had no idea that I would be this moody. I have had bouts of depression before, they are mostly stress induced, but I had no idea that I would get an episode from this. It's weird, usually when I am depressed, I don't want to do anything or go anywhere. I don't mind the idea of going out, in fact I look forward to it. It almost seems like since I am depressed about not breastfeeding anymore, that I want a break from being around him, almost as though having him around is a reminder of what is making me depressed.
Don't get me wrong, I love him. Earlier this week he & our older son stayed the night at my mother's house & I missed him. I couldn't wait to see him the next day. It's just this depression has me in mood swings. I also am not used to dealing with it this time of year. With Spring ahead, I usually shake off the seasonal depression by now. I didn't realize how much bonding was actually going on until we stopped nursing. We still bond. He crawls into my lap, says, "Wuv you" & has me craddle him. I guess I became more attached & wasn't as prepared this time around for the weaning b/c I didn't have another baby to nurse to fall back on like I did with our other son.
