Feeling confident.

   Feeling confident on all levels really helps with life. It wasn't even 2 monthsago that we stopped nursing. I spent 2 weeks trying to keep my wits about me. Then depression started to set in. One night I broke down crying & my husband had to spend the rest of the night comforting me. Two weeks after that I started to feel better. Seeing how much better we(the baby & I) were both sleeping made me feel better. My milk wasn't really there anymore & Leland wasn't occasionally asking for it. The last 2 weeks have been better. Leland asked for boobie the other day while he was tired & sad. I told him mommy didn't have any & he snuggled into me. No crying, no tantrum. Just love.

  Usually, when I tell him no, he would get a little upset, but then run off. He would ask once or twice a week, so I didn't get too discouraged by it, but I always felt sad about it. I wondered what was different this time & realized that it was because I was confident in my response to him because I knew I didn't have any milk, so telling him didn't make me feel like I was with holding anything from him. The guilty sounding no must've been different from the confident no & he was more accepting of that. Whenever we are in public & I want our children to listen, the confident tone always seems to work better than a mad tone, so it made sense. I am feeling better now about having stopped nursing & am having much more fun playing with our boys.